confession #1

Im still in "love" with you. And i miss you.

Always

I've always loved you. Always have and always will.

Still..

Why do i feel this way? I cant stop thinkin about what we been through.
I never did you worng. Never cheated Nor never hit you.
The only thing was my insecurities and jealousy.
But I'm past all that.
I seen what I've put you through but still you wont give us another try.
After all we've done Almost everything with eachother.
Fed ducks, random lunch and dinner dates.
Chillin all day with each other, didnt matter
if we were out or just hangingout watching movies and
playing with the kids at your house. We took the kids out
like they were our own. Took them to the park, chuck e cheese,
mall play ground and jelly belly. I love your siblings
as if they were my own and i still do.
I miss going to family parties with you hanging out and having fun.
Your parents let you take me everywhere with you guys.
Frisco, Daly City, half moon bay everywhere. I got along with
your parents as you got along with mines.
Why did i let something so simple for me to do push you away?
So far away?
Now that its almost November i just cant stop reminiscing
the holidays with had with eachother. Thanksgiving with my
family and then with yours. Remember last year in December?
Eating dinner in Sac then Ice skating outside?
That was something i liked about you.
You really know how to plan things.
Then Christmas came along and i was at your
families house opening presents with you guys and your auntie
got me a gift card. I was surprised when she gave it to me.
Then it was New Years. We were at your Uncles
house playing with the kids and just enjoying eachothers company.
But i had to leave before 12 cause my parents.
We never really had a New Years kiss.
Wish i still had a chance.
I know i promised you i was gonna change.
But guess what? i did. Its never too late to change.
theres just so many memories we had i just cant seem to forget them.
All the stuff you got me i still have.
Posters and pictures and cards i still have them under my bed.
I cant let something go like that. I thought we had something.
I dont know why but im still holding on.
I mis holding your hand, kissing your lips, hearing "LOVE YOU" from you.
Just everything about you i miss.
I stopped wishing and praying and hoping for you the come back.
But im just waiting till the day you forget about me.
I got to confess i still wear the stuff you got me.
I dont know why im writing about this.
Its just one of those nights where i just think about you.
Not gonna front i miss you and i still love you.
Haven't stopped yet...

Motivation.

"Obstacles don't have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it."

- Michael Jordan

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